Afterall it IS a raise right???
Boy I feel like the most ungrateful person on earth right now. So many things are happening at work that I just can't even keep up with the latest "drama". Although I'm not one to get caught up in all the fuss, it kinda just sucks you in, ya know?
The good news is that we just got word that we are getting a raise. 5.1%, not bad, not bad at all. I'm grateful, but not really. We also got word that our Health Insurance benefits are going up too, 25%!!!! So, the 5.1% basically gets cancelled out and then some...then lots of some! By December 31st I will be paying OVER $750.00 per month for health care....'scuse me, for Health Insurance, then the copays for the Dr. visits and Rx on top.
Needless to say, I'm now officially in the job market. The final word came from our union today and today I conceded; this is a loosing battle I CAN NOT WIN. I’ve known this for a while, but that hasn’t made it easier to accept.
I honestly thought I’d be with the district for the rest of my life. It’s a great job that I LOVE. I love being there with my kids, I love what I do and I love the people (well most) I work with. My co worker and I have already shed some tears. I’m breaking her heart all the while my heart is breaking too. I know, I have to do what is best for me and my family, yada yada yada.
It’s so scary putting myself out there again. I’ve never, ever had a problem finding a job, Willy’s reminded me of that several times during the past weeks. But there’s always the feeling of rejection to have to contend with. I’m a firm believer that whatever door I need to step through will be opened and whatever doors shut right in front of me is for the best. Every thing has a purpose, whatever happens in my life is an opportunity to learn, to grow.
I don’t know what the future holds, I don’t know what’s gonna happen and why it’s happening. When changes come about I get really scared. It could be bad, really really bad, or it could be good, really really good. There seems to be no “in-between” for me, that’s just how my life has worked out so far.
The good news is that we just got word that we are getting a raise. 5.1%, not bad, not bad at all. I'm grateful, but not really. We also got word that our Health Insurance benefits are going up too, 25%!!!! So, the 5.1% basically gets cancelled out and then some...then lots of some! By December 31st I will be paying OVER $750.00 per month for health care....'scuse me, for Health Insurance, then the copays for the Dr. visits and Rx on top.
Needless to say, I'm now officially in the job market. The final word came from our union today and today I conceded; this is a loosing battle I CAN NOT WIN. I’ve known this for a while, but that hasn’t made it easier to accept.
I honestly thought I’d be with the district for the rest of my life. It’s a great job that I LOVE. I love being there with my kids, I love what I do and I love the people (well most) I work with. My co worker and I have already shed some tears. I’m breaking her heart all the while my heart is breaking too. I know, I have to do what is best for me and my family, yada yada yada.
It’s so scary putting myself out there again. I’ve never, ever had a problem finding a job, Willy’s reminded me of that several times during the past weeks. But there’s always the feeling of rejection to have to contend with. I’m a firm believer that whatever door I need to step through will be opened and whatever doors shut right in front of me is for the best. Every thing has a purpose, whatever happens in my life is an opportunity to learn, to grow.
I don’t know what the future holds, I don’t know what’s gonna happen and why it’s happening. When changes come about I get really scared. It could be bad, really really bad, or it could be good, really really good. There seems to be no “in-between” for me, that’s just how my life has worked out so far.
posted by Rebecca at 5:50 PM
2 Comments:
I totally agree with you that things happen for a reason. Hang in there and hopefully everything will be resolved soon!
Hang in there sweetie. I'm positive you will find the right job.
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