If you only knew

Drafted on 10/17/05
Made public on 3/27/15
I wish I knew what thoughts were running through my head at that time.  They were most-likely no different than the ones I have now....


If you only knew what was going on inside my head you'd be surprised. I think you'd be overwhelmed by the sense of calm within myself.

If you only knew what I was going through right now and listened to my thoughts you'd be shocked to see me standing where I am.

If you only knew what has been said to me, you'd wonder how I can keep a straight face and not burst into tears every second of the day.

If you only knew what I need, and what I have you'd thank God you have what you do.

If you only knew how increadably selfish I feel, and how much I just want to kick and scream and throw a tantrum because of the things are happening, I think I'd be excused, for a moment at least. Yet, I refuse to throw a tantrum.

If you knew in your heart like I know, that God is in control of all things, you'd be able to stand in the midst of the storms of your life, resisting the urge to scream and cry, keeping your head held high, with peace instead of panic.

If you only knew