I love this guy :)

Things are coming along. I'm so proud of Willy for his determination and drive. He's been attending the boys' baseball games and is so happy to be alive!

It's amazing to think that last year he wasn't even able to attend any games and for the past year he's been in a haze. We were watching Lost the other night and he told us he doesn't remember anything that's happened during the last couple of years on the show. He was so excited to see the season finale, but said he had no clue who the characters were or what their backgrounds were...Geeze, where has he been?

Yep, he'd checked out there for a while, but he's back!

He and the boys are out for the evening, bowling. Well, the boys are bowling at least :) But this is the first time in at least a year that he's been able to go out with the boys by himself and have fun. This is a very special night and I am so grateful to God for this.

Sigh...

Arroyo made it to NCS. We played against De La Salle yesterday. Lost 11-4. I'm ok with that, they had a great season. Will's last season of High School Baseball, maybe baseball forever.

This picture was taken as the boys were headed to the bus, Will is #18....I'm kinda sad right now, mommy moment.

My perfectly imperfect family!

Mother's day was nice. LW took me out to breakfast and Ben's taking me out to see Shrek 3 this weekend. I asked for the same thing I ask for every year, a photo shoot with everyone. I really wanted a "serious" photo shoot, but really that's too much for me to ask!

That's ok though, there's nothing serious about my boys, except for LW maybe, but other than him, they're all NUTS! I decided I wanted photos with each of my boys, yep, I hate the way I look and the wind was crazy, hence the wild hair but really, I don't have many pictures of me and my boys together so, however I look and however the pictures turned out, here they are. I still have to get a photo of all of us together. My camera was too heavy for Big Willy to hold still, plus he's blind as a bat! LOL LW took the ones of me and the boys and Ben took the ones of me & LW.

So here we are in all our sillyness, crazy hair and bubbling bellies :)

When?

When did it happen? Where have the years gone? It seems like only yesterday, I was this young, scared new mom holding this precious amazing baby in my arms. This gentle, quiet babe who laid so still taking in everything around him. When did he transform?

When did he grow up? When did he grow from this?: to this?:My baby is a man now. Yeah, some may say just because he's 18 doesn't automatically make him a man. I would agree somewhat, but his selective service registration card is sitting right in front of me and I have to face the fact that he is indeed a man, no matter what I think.

He'll be leaving home soon, on a venture that will take him a couple thousand miles away from me. My baby, who I hated to let spend the night away from home, my baby who I hated to leave at the baby sitters, my baby who I've tried to protect and shield all his life. My baby, who is now a man. When?

He won't be home on his birthday next year, I know I shouldn't think about it. But I was there when he was born. I felt the pain as he passed from his confined but safe, warm and secure world, into this big, cold and sometimes unforgiving life. I can't imagine being without him to celebrate on a day that brought so much wonderful change and joy into my life.

So, all I can do is celebrate and cherish what I have now and not worry about tomorrow. But still, yesterday, he was a boy and today, he is a man. When?